My morning coffee

I see it every day on Facebook. Posts describing the coffee people got that morning, pictures of the Starbucks cup with a witty caption about starting their day, or people waking up complaining it's entirely too early and they can't wait for their coffee fix. I get it. People need their caffeine. But what people don't realize is that this coffee is SO terrible for them.
It's terrible for your body first of all. It's adding to their caffeine dependency, an it's also ruining your teeth. Here is my morning 'coffee' that helps me get up and go.




Not every morning, but a majority of my mornings start with this right here. It's a banana, frozen strawberries (I buy an already frozen bag from Costco), I buy blueberries and blackberries when they go on sale and freeze them myself and add a few of each in there, one fat free vanilla yogurt, and some milk. I throw it all in my magic bullet -side note, best investment ever. Small, easy to clean, and better than a blender. Get one!
Best way to start your morning! Healthy and delicious!
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Um, it's been a while...

So, I had a second baby. Surprise! I got pregnant shortly after Lilly came... like, 3 months shortly after. I didn't gain a whole lot, average for an average pregnancy, but added to the fact that I was already HUGE, I left the hospital at just under 220 lbs.

I'll give you a moment to take that in.

Keep in mind, I was 120 when I got pregnant with Lilly. So, in just under 2 years, I gained 100 lbs.

Ridiculous.

I've lost 65lbs so far. I have a bit of ways to go. I keep meaning to log on to this and post (not that anyone reads it???) but every time I come to post I think 'what's the point? I'm still FAT!'. Well, the day of accountability has come. I'm finally going to (try) post here more. Maybe I'll get the courage to share this link with people, maybe I won't. Maybe this will just be for me... and the random person that finds it perhaps?

Anyway, here I am 7 months after having my 2nd baby, 157lbs (give or take 2-3 lbs per day... depending on the day) trying to get back to my pre pregnancy weight of 120. I'm breastfeeding still, so any kind of outside help of diet pills is out of the question.

I'm still in pregnancy jeans. BUT its only because I can't fit in my size 2-4 jeans. Because well, you see above what my weight is. I can fit into one pair of fat jeans, that are a grotesque size 10. I am swimming in my maternity jeans, but I refuse to go out and buy new jeans that I'm only going to wear for a few months, and then by next winter I'll be wearing my small jeans again. (I REFUSE to give up on my weight loss journey, I HATE being fat with a passion).

I limit my caloric intake as best I can, but again, I'm breastfeeding, and I'm actually supposed to be eating MORE calories. So many women say they lose soooo much weight breastfeeding, I have yet to reap those rewards. My son, however, gets to reap the rewards of breastfeeding, so I suppose it's a good trade off.

In all honesty, I'm a strong believer in breastfeeding if your body allows you to do it. Lilly only got 4 months, because after I got pregnant again, all my milk dried up. Really she got about 5 months because of all the pumped milk I had stashed in the freezer. She has a pretty damn good immune system. She has yet to be sick, and will be 2 in four months. (knock on wood).

I guess that's all there is to update... besides my personal life which is, well, pretty non-existant at the moment. I have 2 babies I care for every day. Every minute of the day is hectic, which is also a contributor to why I haven't blogged until this point. Ethan is just now settling into a 2 nap a day schedule. He has been super erratic and hates sleep up until this point. Rigth now is actually his first nap of the day. I get basically 1 hour to get shit done. Lilly is self sufficient at this point (ha!). Meaning, she likes to play on her own and with the dogs. She will let me play with her for about 10 minutes before she gets bored of me and walks away to do her own thing. She's so independant, so strong. She is going to be amazing when she grows up. She already IS amazing. I could talk about her all day if someone let me. I love my kids.

So, I'll be trying to do at least a weekly re-cap of what's going on with my weight loss, my exercise routines, what I'm doing to change it up, my Taekwondo progress... etc. I have a story about almost geting into a physical fight with a big black woman at the gym a couple of weeks ago, I'll save that for another day.

Eggs/vacation set backs/random tangents

I love eggs. LOVE THEM. Since being home, it's been easy to make and eat in the mornings. I started eating oatmeal in the mornings for about 3 1/2 weeks. I heard it helps produce more breast milk. Well, all that fiber was backing up my little princess and causing her to scream in pain for hours during the day. I stopped eating oatmeal, and that fixed the problem. She is back to being the happiest baby in the world. So, I've been making egg white omelets in the mornings. Yummy! They are easy and taste good. I add a little salsa and some mashed avacado. I add some salt and pepper to the avacado but nothing else, so it's not really 'guacamole', just smooshed avacado.

In the afternoons I've been sticking to eating turkey sandwhiches. I've been eating lots of fruits during the day, although, I will admit I cheated a couple of times and had a few cookies. I've decided I can't have cookies in the house. I didn't buy any the last trip to the store. Bobby is just going to have to hide them if he wants any. lol.

Dinner has been a bit of a challenge. The boys LOVE pasta, and fatty dishes. I made lasagana the other day, and both Bobby and Ryan want it for lunch and snacks... at least that gets rid of it quick. haha! I can't live off of pasta (I mean, I could, I'd just be gaining 10 lbs a week!). So I've been REALLY watching my portions. I took a small square of it for dinner the night I made it, and than since hubs wasn't hungry the next day (someone had brought him dinner at karate) Kaitie and I ate it again for dinner the next day. Kaitie comes and visits our school from the Matthews once a week or so. We love her! I have known her since she was 8 and she's now entering into her senior yr of HS. Since she drives out here she comes over for dinner and a movie after karate.

Anyway, portion control. That's what I have ap roblem with usually. I LOVE food. I just can't get myself to stop once I get started. Seriously, I have a problem with eating. I have to have serious talks with myself about getting seconds, or thirds, or fourths... I could probably finish a pan of lasagana on my own if I wanted. I have always been able to out eat my guy friends. I am just that good. (seriously, my guy friends had a bet with one another to see who could out eat me at a party once, without telling me. They ended up admitting defeat when they couldn't keep up anymore. And this is when I was SKINNY MINNIE!!)

Vacation was hard. I went from 175.2 up to 178 by the time I came home. UGGGHHH!! It felt like such defeat... I weighed myself this morning, just to see, and I'm down to 174.2. Success! Although, I wonder if I'd be closer to 170 had I not been a bad girl on vacation.

Anyway, I'll do a formal weigh in on Monday. I downloaded an app on my iPhone called my fitness pall, and it ROCKS! It keeps track of what I eat, the exercises I do, my goals and everything. I have a ticker on the side bar of my other blog, I'll have to upload it here. I wonder when I'll start sharing this link with people... it's hard to admit I weigh this much to other people. I know they see it, who wouldn't be able to sheesh I'm huge, but it's so black and white with that number just staring at you.

I hate being fat, I truly hate it. I don't judge people who are over weight. Some people are just that way, they have medical issues or what not, and some people just don't care. What ever works for you. Fat doesn't work for me. It just doesn't. It never has. I've fluxuated throughout my life, had some periods where I've been 'heavier' but never this big. I've never weighed this much. I just really want to get it off. I'm working my butt off.

Monday check in

I didn't lose one stinking pound. I did maintain though... I'm really disappointed in myself. I did eat not great, my sister's birthday party was Friday night. I'm not sure what did me in, the cake, or the yummy food, or both really. I just hope I get it back in gear this next week. Cest La Vie...

progress

I weighed myself on Monday, I was 176.4lbs. yay! Lost some lbs.

This week has been hard. I was great the begining of the week, then Thursday hit, and it's been a losing battle. I'm going to be good today. lol.

I'll check in again on Monday, and I'm only going to be doing the inches thing every month. No point in doing it every week.

I'm enjoying my egg white omelettes though.

Project: Lose an Olsen Twin

I had my baby 7 weeks ago, and while I've lost 30lbs of it, I still have a long way to go. This blog, will chronical myself through my journey of 'losing an olsen twin'. That's the weight I have to lose. I will do a weekly weigh in, and summary of my achievements, and defeats, during this time. Hopefully, the guilt of having to check in with this blog will motivate me to not cheat.

Weekly measurements:
Right Arm: 11 1/4"
Left Arm: 11 1/4"
Waist: 35"
Hips: 42"
Right upper thigh: 28 1/2"
Left upper thigh: 28 1/2"
Right Lower Thigh (Just above the knee): 19"
Left Lower Thigh (Just above the knee): 19"
Right Calf: 16"
Left Calf: 16"

Start Weight 180

That's what I was on Monday. I'll be doing all my measurements every monday.